Hey Honkytonk

My time in malaysia is nearing its end…

I actually feel quite sad, thinking of leaving this country… i’ve spent so much of my childhood here, even though the first 5 years was mainly in singapore, as i was schooling there..

I’ll be leaving malaysia, for korea, where i haven’t been for.. 3 years now? on the 7th or 8th.. i’ll be there for about a week, and then, i’m off to england!!

a lot of work to do now.. shopping, visa application, flight bookings, etc..  i feel so.. bogged down by a lot of things.. oh well, it’ll all be settled in time..

last day of work is approaching. hot malaysian girl came in today. mid twenties now, too old for me, out of reach :P. can’t wait to get my pay, and buy myself a digital camera..

liverpool it is then. a bit far from london.. and the rest of the KTJ bunch.. but there are plenty other places to go to. like manchester, and also dublin’s quite nearby as well.. and i’m nearest to scotland, compared to all the others, but from what i hear, i’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not. :P.. no offense to all the scots.

that’s all.. later people.

Listening to: Bloc Party - Tulips

That is the greatest song ever.. well it’s my favourite song.. so far anyway.. might change after a year or two, me being the fickle person i am.. but it’s pretty fun to play on the guitar..

I feel so fatigued.. last nite.. after a 4 hour bus ride, i was up until 5am… and then i fell asleep.. only to awake at 9.. argh the grogginess. but i can’t seem to fall asleep. this only seems to happens easily when there’s a teacher talking and there’s something important to be learnt :p.. it’d be an interesting method of treating insomnia, but mayb it might work! i’ll one day go and make a cardboard cut out of a teacher, record some lectures and play them at night. :p

Saturday was terrible.. i slept at 3, woke up at 6, went back to sleep about 6.10, woke up at 10.. got ready to go out, and ended up waiting for moe/shereen/rollin until 4pm.. i was meant to take the bus at 4pm.. oh well, decided to postpone my bloody long bus-ride, and hung out with them, the most fun part, was being in moe’s car, and we were talking silly stuff, and had conversations that had no point.. and in the midst of all this, shereen fell asleep! so cute! and we were playing slipknot so loud as well, quite incredible, yes it was.

We ate at TGI Friday’s.. i had starters and shared a dessert with rollin.. very expensive stuff. I met sean fitzjohn there.. quite amazing, the last time we saw each other was.. 5 years ago? and he’s got an afro now, no more squeaky voice and all. the moment he left, we were all thinking "saya makan ikan di dalam api?"

and very very many thanks to zarif who let me stay at his place, in KL. and thanks to all the people that replied my messages while i was on the bus. indeed, it was boring as hell, and i could not sleep.

i’ll update again later.. bye.

I’m in KL.. at Zarif’s house.. right, so i collected my passport, which now, contains a 10year visa to the US… so that was something important..

i’ve decided to stay a day longer in KL.. shereen asked me to

i was out and about today… we went to KLCC and walked around, ate, and more stuff like dat… after which, we proceeded to watch a movie… bewitched.. it’s one of those movies with a sweet "love is great" sort of theme.. which was sweet, but quite tormenting, considering that zarif was watching with nash, justin was watchin it with leanne, and the seat on my left was empty.. what a feeling of loneliness.. therefore, ended up not enjoying the movie much.. :S

after the movie.. i was just.. walking around with the two couples.. third wheel from morning till night they didn’t mind me being the third wheel, since i know all of them well.. i didn’t really mind either, but i just wish i had a girlfriend then, to go through all the clothes that she found interesting, to watch the movie together while cuddling, to hold hands and talk about stuff and to do all the other stuff that people in love do… :s

i’m blabbering. it’s late. my head’s a mess. i’ve missed work for 4 days coz i’ve been in KL, collecting my results and meeting friends… i need help…

Listening to: Construction workers upstairs(mayb downstairs) - VERY LOUD DRILLING

ARGHH! It’s my off day, and the bloody people upstairs (might be downstairs.. the sound is ringing everywhere) had to fuckin wake me up at 9.30am!! i feel terrible, coz i fell asleep at 4.30am.. just couldn’t sleep.. had a lot of thoughts swimmin in my head.. so i ended up reading, and playing some guitar, and then.. i fell sleep at 4.30..

Disclaimer: i’m not encouraging Ethyl chloride use. in fact, i’m strongly against it, so the following information is just for educational purposes

Ethyl Chloride Usage Instructions:

1.Get yourself a piece of cloth, preferably a small towel. If desperate and you cannot find a towel, the sleeve of your t-shirt will do.

2.Open the spray can and stick head of spray into the cloth, and spray generously into a single spot(wastage is bad!!) and feel, with your hand on the other side of the towel, for a drop in temperature.

3.Once u feel it is cold, and u feel it damp, quickly bring this spot to your nose, stick it right up against it, and inhale very hard..

4.Continue to take BIG breaths, IN and OUT.

5.When u feel the cloth beginning to warm, remove from nose, and enjoy.

that’s it..

now for the report..

Disclaimer: This is not a real-time report, it is a recollection of a high, which was obtained, a LONG LONG LONG time ago, i no longer use ethyl chloride to get high, and again, this information is only for educational purposes.

Ethyl Chloride Trip Report:

t+00.20: holy hell, my nose feels bloody cold.. and my nose stings..
t+00.30: not so cold anymore..eh? how come i’m not breathing big breaths anymore?

t+00.35: my breathing is getting a bit laboured..

t+00.40: i’m feeling a… throbbing numbness in my fingers.. i can still see everything… but my vision.. it seems everything is in slow motion.

t+00.45: lol, the music is on, and the lady keeps on saying the same lines!! and there’s an echo!! i have no idea what this song is… can’t recognize it

t+00.50: i, being an idiot, start jumping up and down like crazy, while shaking my head.. my co-ordination is SEVERELY fucked, and this turned out to be a dumb thing to do.. i fall down and my head continues to feel like its shaking

t+01.00: i’m gonna sit back and enjoy this…

t+01.30: i try analyse the high.. and then i realise that i’m trying to realise the high.. and then i realise that i realised that i’m trying to realise the high…

t+02.00: everything seems to come in layers, sounds, and even thoughts.. i realise i’m holding the can, and i realise that i thought i was holding the can, and i realised that i should drop it, and then i dropped it, and i heard the sound, and i thought i heard the sound, and found it funny, and realised that i found it funny, and smiled, and then i realised i smiled, and i thought it was wrong, so i realised that the best thing to do was put my head in my hands, which i didn’t do.. for another 2 seconds, or so i thought…

t+03.00: yeah, the feeling is starting to go.. no more WEIRD thinking processes… just the familiar throbbing-numbness in my fingers…

t+0.400: hmm.. that was a short high..

U can see that i miss it eh? but after "that" experience, which some people know about.. it’ll be a long time before i touch it again..

A-LEVEL RESULTS COME OUT TOMORROW!! :S not as if i don’t know my results already.. :S:P but still.. i’m looking forward to meeting everybody again. i miss all u guys.. well actually.. i miss most of u guys.. well actually.. i miss some of you people..

yeah. later people..

Listening to: Bloc Party - Helicopter

I like this song so much… It’s amazing how nobody listens to Bloc Party in Malaysia.. this place is infested with Simple Plan fans, to the point where it’s quite disgusting.. I miss my bandmates SO much… i wonder if we’ll EVER EVER perform again together… probably not, but oh well.. we’ll organize something at some point… Lol.. next time we get together, we’ll have a name, something better than The Rubber Band :P…

Speaking of music… my workmate, called Farid, and I were talking about guitars… he asked me what strings i used, i replied with the customary lame joke and said "g-string".. but nvm that.. it’s Ernie Ball now.. but they need to be changed.. argh. digressing again.. well anyway, he asked me, to play in the restaurant that i work in… so i asked him if we didn’t need a license or anything.. well, if it’s not too loud.. i suppose it doesn’t really matter if i just sit there with a small amplifier and play something… but he plays guitar as well, he’s probably better… mayb one day i’ll bring a guitar along..

ethyl chloride… ethyl chloride… ethyl chloride…

i still can’t believe they sell that stuff at pharmacies, unaware of its uses… but i’m glad i’ve got myself a job now.. there’s so much heartache when spending, that i’ll probably NEVER use money on that sort of thing again.. i’m saving up for a digital camera..

why do people read blogs? wanna tell me?

Listening to: Bloc Party - Tulips

I haven’t had ethyl chloride in ages..

I accidentally inferred that Amal was a slut, it’s not what i meant, but she’s pissed off at me nevertheless.. very very unhappy.. so what to do now? she doesn’t even talk to me :S

Singaporeans are so so enthusiastic about their national day.. I don’t get it.. They’re like a big bunch of youthful church-going people… i don’t get them either.. always so proud and happy of Jesus and whoever else that’s supposed to be their saviour or something like that.. My sister, going to a Singaporean school, has learnt all these patriotic songs, she’s singing em all the time, and it’s gettin really irritating…

The bloody Irish… they say they won’t accept my university application now.. it’s too late.. and the bloody english, they say i’m too young… right… i was only recently told, that u gotta be 18and above… i’m bloody 17 and 9 months in september… *sigh*..

So i gotta take a gap year… but where? any suggestions anyone??

Soon, i’ll be on my way up to KL, meet all my mates there.. perhaps we’ll go drinking… that should be fun, i haven’t drank properly in a very long time.. VERY long time… i’m shivering with anticipation someone buy me a drink… a B-52 please..

I haven’t played golf in ages… i gotta go to work in a while..

Ethyl Chloride anyone? Please!!!! PLEASE!!

Listening to: Whitelight - Robin

I really don’t do much other than work nowadays, which is really fun, and there have been some really interesting and amusing experiences… proceed with care…

1. I handed a menu to a lady. On this single page, there’s the Steak section, and there’s the Lamb section. This lady, while pointing at the Lamb, proceeds to ask me, if the Lamb, contains beef

2. I handed a menu to some man. He proceeds to ask me for nescafe, i tell him "No sir, we don’t have nescafe, but we have Lavazza, the italian coffee (which is fabulous stuff btw) and he says "ok, we’ll take that".. and a few minutes later, he wants to change it, to Iced Nescafe..

3. A lady reaches an important fork in the road, crossroads, and she needs to make a difficult decision. Indeed she is in a hurry, and she is faced with two doors.. : 1 says "Gentlemen", the other says "Ladies".. Faced with an extremely diffcult decision which could affect her future life severely… she asks me.. "Eh? Which one ah?"

4.  uhh.. i can’t think of anymore off the top of my head now… will perhaps remember, and tell again later..

nobody has proceeded to offer me any ethyl chloride, i’m severly disappointed in everyone, u evil, non-charitable people…

right. two entries in one day, it’s a new record.

not that i am thinkin of anything in particular… i was bored.. i can’t wait till university starts.. and yet i dread it. so much to prepare, so much money that needs to be spend, and so much i’ll be leaving behind in malaysia.. quite saddening really..

after the last work problem, i’ve begun to worry about whether i am right about my schedule or not.. what if i get it wrong again? i’d look like a real fool wouldn’t i.

i slept more or less the whole afternoon today, i was in dire need of caffeine, and i did not get it till 6pm..

random ruminating…

do u ever have those moments, when u do something for a person and u don’t tell them, and u realise that this person will never know that u did it for them… it’s quite a shitty feeling isn’t it?

if the pizza place promises maximum delivery time of 30mins, they always seem to arrive on the dot, and not give a discount… i mean, why can’t they get here after 10 minutes?

and i’m not good at this ruminating thing..

Yes! Finally! I have a proper screen-name, other than the somewhat average "hongchan"…

My new official screen-name is = Spoontaneous

:P, it was formed from a typo, when i was trying to type the word spontaneous and accidentally pressed "O" twice..

I think it fits me very well. I consider myself as somewhat spontaneous when it comes to things like this, and it’s a bit silly with the "spoon" bit in it..

I hope nobody has used it before, my search for originality won’t stop as I continue my non-conformist ways.. but i’m blogging.. a LOT of people blog.. so am I contradicting myself? Now, not many people contradict themselves do they? So am I conforming or what? WTF, it’s all a big cycle, and now i’m thinkin in circles… this happens when you think too much, i’ll now let my instincts take over.. the most natural instincts…

YES! I’m hungry. :S

this is a mad entry, yes it is…

Ethyl Chlorided anyone? i’m not offering, i’m askin for some.

Listening to: Artful Dodger - Please Don’t Turn Me On

I missed a day of work yesterday accidentally, i thought it was my day off, apparently, i read the schedule wrongly. well, i made up for it, and went to work today, which was meant to be my day off. this must have been the best decision i’ve made in quite a long time because, today i really did enjoy my work. i hope my employer isn’t reading this, or any of her sons for that matter, :S but the daughter is REALLY pretty :P. hahah, it was quite refreshing, finally working with somebody somewhat nearer to my age (she’s 2 years younger than me), and no matter how hard i tried to look natural, i bet a little bit of effort went in, into doing my best. and this effort, led to me turnin on the kettle without turning on the switch at the plug-point, and various other, minor, silly-lookin mistakes.. she’s only working there, coz we are under-staffed, with the recent resignation of a full-timer who’d been there for a while.. i only hope that we don’t hire anybody too soon, so she can go on working here, just let me be happy till i live for the UK :P, no perverse thoughts involved, she’s just REALLY cute and pretty. but mayb if she doesn’t work, the brothers work :S. i mean, that’s fine with me, but it could be better!

enough about work. my knees are aching, and i need to see the doctor to update him about my knees and my ankle. and also to get certain vaccination checks, because medical or dental students cannot have hepatitis C and some other stuff… argh, more needles poking in, leaving little bruises… i’ve already got two on my left arm.

it’s been 2 whole days since i bought the latest harry potter book. and i’ve finished it. well, harry’s in his 6th year, almost 17, and wow. the book has indeed, changed a lot. mayb not for the innocent 10 yr olds anymore. a whole lot of public kissin and holdin hands, which isn’t something i disapprove of, i’m happy with it 100%, but i don’t think KTJ would like this :P. PDA giler babi sial

right, bye people, i haven’t blogged for a while… refreshing. quite sad really, to say that my mind has only been occupied by WORK(this is ok, i’m earning money and in company of a pretty girl) and HARRY POTTER(*sigh*)..