Hey Honkytonk

The British High Commission has finally issued my student visa!!

I am not exactly thrilled, but I am somewhat relieved that it all went okay. Imagine the mess I’d be if my application had been rejected. That would mean no university and a whole load of other things… most of my friends are in europe. I’d be lost!

Ah, that guy who interviewed me, what a nice chap, I feel quite grateful… I wonder what went on behind the scenes and what led to the incredible delay.. I’m so late for class, my grades are gonna suffer..

Why is it that people are punished for using drugs? I don’t get it :S

Everybody should be free to inject whatever they want into their bodies.. considering the fact that drug use is not harmful to others, i don’t understand why it is so illegal. Things like smoking should be more controversial, as 2nd hand smoking kills people who don’t smoke. Drugs only kill the people who do the drugs..

Drugs are a health risk, but so what? Fat people, who eat loads and loads are causing health problems to themselves, but nobody says anything. Nobody says a great deal about alcohol either.

I propose that recreational drug usage, and the sale of the drugs be made legal, with certain limitations. Such as no sale of drugs to anybody under 18, no advertising allowed, no usage of drugs in public, etc.

The fact that drugs are illegal, means that prices can be controlled by the underworld who are illegally selling these, which means that they are made more expensive, leading to more robberies by desperate people who need money to buy expensive drugs illegally… Am i making sense??

Just felt like saying that.. not that i’m a drug addict or anything

My visa is still not out yet.

My classes started on the 26th Sept.

I applied for the visa on the 12th Sept.

On the 27th Sept, the embassy told me to go for an interview.

The interview will be held on the 6th October.

*PAUSE FOR GASPS OF HORROR AND SHOWING OF DISGUST*

*sigh*

i’ve missed classes already, i’m beginning to wonder if they’ll let me in at all, considering how late i am. If there are any more delays, i’ll make it to the university in time for christmas holidays!

My whole body is feeling very… bleh. It’s rotting with disuse.. I feel so.. rigid and rusty. I haven’t done any form of sports in a while.. I need to get out and do something… but no, i haven’t got much to do, coz all my friends are in the UK, all my old JB friends have gone all over the world, and i’m the only one left behind. Of course, i could go to the mall by myself, but i only have pounds left, as i changed all my ringgit to pound sterling, and the little little change, i have already spent all of it, and a lot of my clothes are in a bag…

life’s not fair. I’m the only one who’s having visa problems.

I’m one of the few, who’s not gonna have a family member go with me(this is not such a big problem btw)

I’m one of the few who are self-sponsored(this is kinda my fault)

I’m the only one who didn’t get university accommodation(this is the courier people’s fault, i sent my form in in time, they didn’t get it in time because of the bloody courier people)

i can’t do ANYTHING if i don’t get there and register. I dont’ get a student card, i don’t get a unversity card, i can’t register into the uni computer system, i can’t open a bank account, etc., etc., etc…

ARGH!!!

later people.

I haven’t blogged in a really long time eh? I’ve had plenty of time to do it though, i’ve just been feeling really lethargic. I feel that I have the right to do absolutely nothing, until university starts, coz then i won’t be able to do so..

so, after much worrying, i’m still going to the university of liverpool, they are fine with the fact that i’ll be a week or two late, because of visa problems.. they promised me 2 to 5 days.. i applied on the 12th, and it’s now the 25th, and it’s STILL not out yet. truly frustrating, never has my patience been tested to this extent before. i’ve missed the welcome event, the meet and greet service, fresher’s week, registration and i will be missing the first few days of class..

now that my departure has been delayed so much, i might as well have worked a bit more and earned myself a little more money so i could have more to spend once i’m there. i can’t wait, to see some of my old friends, who i haven’t met since primary school, there are still one or two of them there in england..

well, september has been an interesting month.. lots of stuff has been happening, leading to many various emotions. hmm. not going to be saying why, and what has been happening, that’s only for me to know.

I’m having mixed feelings about going to england to study.. i’ve been there before and i liked it, and it sure as hell beats going back to korea or to the US, i can’t stand the people in both the countries.. but i’m leaving so much behind, there’s now so much more for me to lose when i leave…

this new laptop is wonderful, it does wonders! now, i don’t have to wait a minute before the next song plays on windows media player i’ve been downloading music non-stop, i feel so happy

you know, I wonder what’s going on in the minds of opposition rugby players when the new zealand all blacks team start doing their routine dance scaring-the-opposition-thing right in front of them…

My time in malaysia is nearing its end…

I actually feel quite sad, thinking of leaving this country… i’ve spent so much of my childhood here, even though the first 5 years was mainly in singapore, as i was schooling there..

I’ll be leaving malaysia, for korea, where i haven’t been for.. 3 years now? on the 7th or 8th.. i’ll be there for about a week, and then, i’m off to england!!

a lot of work to do now.. shopping, visa application, flight bookings, etc..  i feel so.. bogged down by a lot of things.. oh well, it’ll all be settled in time..

last day of work is approaching. hot malaysian girl came in today. mid twenties now, too old for me, out of reach :P. can’t wait to get my pay, and buy myself a digital camera..

liverpool it is then. a bit far from london.. and the rest of the KTJ bunch.. but there are plenty other places to go to. like manchester, and also dublin’s quite nearby as well.. and i’m nearest to scotland, compared to all the others, but from what i hear, i’m not sure if that’s a good thing or not. :P.. no offense to all the scots.

that’s all.. later people.

Listening to: Bloc Party - Tulips

That is the greatest song ever.. well it’s my favourite song.. so far anyway.. might change after a year or two, me being the fickle person i am.. but it’s pretty fun to play on the guitar..

I feel so fatigued.. last nite.. after a 4 hour bus ride, i was up until 5am… and then i fell asleep.. only to awake at 9.. argh the grogginess. but i can’t seem to fall asleep. this only seems to happens easily when there’s a teacher talking and there’s something important to be learnt :p.. it’d be an interesting method of treating insomnia, but mayb it might work! i’ll one day go and make a cardboard cut out of a teacher, record some lectures and play them at night. :p

Saturday was terrible.. i slept at 3, woke up at 6, went back to sleep about 6.10, woke up at 10.. got ready to go out, and ended up waiting for moe/shereen/rollin until 4pm.. i was meant to take the bus at 4pm.. oh well, decided to postpone my bloody long bus-ride, and hung out with them, the most fun part, was being in moe’s car, and we were talking silly stuff, and had conversations that had no point.. and in the midst of all this, shereen fell asleep! so cute! and we were playing slipknot so loud as well, quite incredible, yes it was.

We ate at TGI Friday’s.. i had starters and shared a dessert with rollin.. very expensive stuff. I met sean fitzjohn there.. quite amazing, the last time we saw each other was.. 5 years ago? and he’s got an afro now, no more squeaky voice and all. the moment he left, we were all thinking "saya makan ikan di dalam api?"

and very very many thanks to zarif who let me stay at his place, in KL. and thanks to all the people that replied my messages while i was on the bus. indeed, it was boring as hell, and i could not sleep.

i’ll update again later.. bye.

I’m in KL.. at Zarif’s house.. right, so i collected my passport, which now, contains a 10year visa to the US… so that was something important..

i’ve decided to stay a day longer in KL.. shereen asked me to

i was out and about today… we went to KLCC and walked around, ate, and more stuff like dat… after which, we proceeded to watch a movie… bewitched.. it’s one of those movies with a sweet "love is great" sort of theme.. which was sweet, but quite tormenting, considering that zarif was watching with nash, justin was watchin it with leanne, and the seat on my left was empty.. what a feeling of loneliness.. therefore, ended up not enjoying the movie much.. :S

after the movie.. i was just.. walking around with the two couples.. third wheel from morning till night they didn’t mind me being the third wheel, since i know all of them well.. i didn’t really mind either, but i just wish i had a girlfriend then, to go through all the clothes that she found interesting, to watch the movie together while cuddling, to hold hands and talk about stuff and to do all the other stuff that people in love do… :s

i’m blabbering. it’s late. my head’s a mess. i’ve missed work for 4 days coz i’ve been in KL, collecting my results and meeting friends… i need help…

Listening to: Construction workers upstairs(mayb downstairs) - VERY LOUD DRILLING

ARGHH! It’s my off day, and the bloody people upstairs (might be downstairs.. the sound is ringing everywhere) had to fuckin wake me up at 9.30am!! i feel terrible, coz i fell asleep at 4.30am.. just couldn’t sleep.. had a lot of thoughts swimmin in my head.. so i ended up reading, and playing some guitar, and then.. i fell sleep at 4.30..

Disclaimer: i’m not encouraging Ethyl chloride use. in fact, i’m strongly against it, so the following information is just for educational purposes

Ethyl Chloride Usage Instructions:

1.Get yourself a piece of cloth, preferably a small towel. If desperate and you cannot find a towel, the sleeve of your t-shirt will do.

2.Open the spray can and stick head of spray into the cloth, and spray generously into a single spot(wastage is bad!!) and feel, with your hand on the other side of the towel, for a drop in temperature.

3.Once u feel it is cold, and u feel it damp, quickly bring this spot to your nose, stick it right up against it, and inhale very hard..

4.Continue to take BIG breaths, IN and OUT.

5.When u feel the cloth beginning to warm, remove from nose, and enjoy.

that’s it..

now for the report..

Disclaimer: This is not a real-time report, it is a recollection of a high, which was obtained, a LONG LONG LONG time ago, i no longer use ethyl chloride to get high, and again, this information is only for educational purposes.

Ethyl Chloride Trip Report:

t+00.20: holy hell, my nose feels bloody cold.. and my nose stings..
t+00.30: not so cold anymore..eh? how come i’m not breathing big breaths anymore?

t+00.35: my breathing is getting a bit laboured..

t+00.40: i’m feeling a… throbbing numbness in my fingers.. i can still see everything… but my vision.. it seems everything is in slow motion.

t+00.45: lol, the music is on, and the lady keeps on saying the same lines!! and there’s an echo!! i have no idea what this song is… can’t recognize it

t+00.50: i, being an idiot, start jumping up and down like crazy, while shaking my head.. my co-ordination is SEVERELY fucked, and this turned out to be a dumb thing to do.. i fall down and my head continues to feel like its shaking

t+01.00: i’m gonna sit back and enjoy this…

t+01.30: i try analyse the high.. and then i realise that i’m trying to realise the high.. and then i realise that i realised that i’m trying to realise the high…

t+02.00: everything seems to come in layers, sounds, and even thoughts.. i realise i’m holding the can, and i realise that i thought i was holding the can, and i realised that i should drop it, and then i dropped it, and i heard the sound, and i thought i heard the sound, and found it funny, and realised that i found it funny, and smiled, and then i realised i smiled, and i thought it was wrong, so i realised that the best thing to do was put my head in my hands, which i didn’t do.. for another 2 seconds, or so i thought…

t+03.00: yeah, the feeling is starting to go.. no more WEIRD thinking processes… just the familiar throbbing-numbness in my fingers…

t+0.400: hmm.. that was a short high..

U can see that i miss it eh? but after "that" experience, which some people know about.. it’ll be a long time before i touch it again..

A-LEVEL RESULTS COME OUT TOMORROW!! :S not as if i don’t know my results already.. :S:P but still.. i’m looking forward to meeting everybody again. i miss all u guys.. well actually.. i miss most of u guys.. well actually.. i miss some of you people..

yeah. later people..

Listening to: Bloc Party - Helicopter

I like this song so much… It’s amazing how nobody listens to Bloc Party in Malaysia.. this place is infested with Simple Plan fans, to the point where it’s quite disgusting.. I miss my bandmates SO much… i wonder if we’ll EVER EVER perform again together… probably not, but oh well.. we’ll organize something at some point… Lol.. next time we get together, we’ll have a name, something better than The Rubber Band :P…

Speaking of music… my workmate, called Farid, and I were talking about guitars… he asked me what strings i used, i replied with the customary lame joke and said "g-string".. but nvm that.. it’s Ernie Ball now.. but they need to be changed.. argh. digressing again.. well anyway, he asked me, to play in the restaurant that i work in… so i asked him if we didn’t need a license or anything.. well, if it’s not too loud.. i suppose it doesn’t really matter if i just sit there with a small amplifier and play something… but he plays guitar as well, he’s probably better… mayb one day i’ll bring a guitar along..

ethyl chloride… ethyl chloride… ethyl chloride…

i still can’t believe they sell that stuff at pharmacies, unaware of its uses… but i’m glad i’ve got myself a job now.. there’s so much heartache when spending, that i’ll probably NEVER use money on that sort of thing again.. i’m saving up for a digital camera..

why do people read blogs? wanna tell me?

Listening to: Bloc Party - Tulips

I haven’t had ethyl chloride in ages..

I accidentally inferred that Amal was a slut, it’s not what i meant, but she’s pissed off at me nevertheless.. very very unhappy.. so what to do now? she doesn’t even talk to me :S

Singaporeans are so so enthusiastic about their national day.. I don’t get it.. They’re like a big bunch of youthful church-going people… i don’t get them either.. always so proud and happy of Jesus and whoever else that’s supposed to be their saviour or something like that.. My sister, going to a Singaporean school, has learnt all these patriotic songs, she’s singing em all the time, and it’s gettin really irritating…

The bloody Irish… they say they won’t accept my university application now.. it’s too late.. and the bloody english, they say i’m too young… right… i was only recently told, that u gotta be 18and above… i’m bloody 17 and 9 months in september… *sigh*..

So i gotta take a gap year… but where? any suggestions anyone??

Soon, i’ll be on my way up to KL, meet all my mates there.. perhaps we’ll go drinking… that should be fun, i haven’t drank properly in a very long time.. VERY long time… i’m shivering with anticipation someone buy me a drink… a B-52 please..

I haven’t played golf in ages… i gotta go to work in a while..

Ethyl Chloride anyone? Please!!!! PLEASE!!